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Chill And Let This “Goal” Take Care Of Itself

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I’ve never been very good at this whole “new year” thing. I mean I have done a fine job absolutely destroying the end of plenty of years. Many I don’t remember those last few hours. I’m glad I’m “too old” for that now.
But, as excited as I always get for a defined start line to a new beginning, I’m horrible at actually doing anything with it. I don’t even try to make new year’s resolutions, because they seem pointless. Like “let’s pick an extremely difficult goal, with no planning, and let’s start RIGHT NOW!” A goal is a commitment, and I don’t even but a pair of shoes (or pants) lightly. I make goals each year, and most of them are to be less fat. Sometimes they are vague, like make it to the gym sometimes, or have my clothes fit better. Sometimes it’s specific, like lose an exact amount of weight or lose so many sizes (2 is the magic number).
But I’ve been the same size for a few years now, and gym attendance and diet has done very little to change that, so I’m a little disillusioned with getting amped all over again for the same thing.
So I feel like this year is a big one. I have a lot changing right now, and I’m getting both excited and scared about all of it. I feel like I need to have something to work towards, but I’m lost as to what that should be. Do I set a goal for self care? Or something for helping others, like the homeless, or goals for the organization I volunteer for? Goals for the family? Or something small, like finally finishing that book I’ve been babysitting for 3 months.
There are so many things, writing, spending time with friends, time with family, spending time ALONE (where did that go?). I want to draw and paint more, I want to clean the house more, read more, sleep more.
I’m not sure where to start, and to be honest, right now, it’s too much to think about. I keep putting it off and hoping it will just smack me upside the head.
I know that’s not much of a goal, but this isn’t my strong point, apparently.

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Author: Jessie Henry

Reinventing my life and enjoying my adventure. Living life as full as I like with no apologies, loving all of it.

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